I really feel like I have no one to talk to about the way I’m feeling. Like I’m thankful for the people I have in my life right now, but I just wish I had someone from the outside looking in’s opinion . I’m so confused about what’s right and wrong. Everyone I go to for advice is in my family, so their opinions are going to be bias.
I’m really confused about sex. I know that’s really weird coming from an eighteen year old, but I am. I really feel like in order to even get a chance with someone, I’m going to have to have sex with him first. I’m not sure how I feel about that. I know everyone says “If he cares about you, he’ll wait til your ready” but this is 2012, I’m on my way to college and I’m not sixteen anymore. I feel like I’m too old to be feeling this way.
And it really pisses me off how some of the past guys I’ve talked to swear up and down that they love that I’m different. They claim to like the fact that I don’t give it up easily and that I actually take the time to get to know them as a person, but as soon as they get a chance, they wanna change it and “turn me into a bad girl” They swear up and down about how they want somebody different, but when they try to get with me and they don’t like it. I’ve felt pressure from every single guy I’ve ever talked to and I would love to know what the “right” thing to do is. At this point, I feel like it was a stupid idea to wait this long, because it seems this shit is a bigger problem than I thought it would ever be.
http://noire3000studios.wordpress.com/2012/05/21/naked-black-justice/
“Hate is like you drinking poison and expecting me to die.”
“Yes, I know who my father is.”
“I am not a thug.”
“Prejudice is injustice.”
“I am a college grad.”
“Black love does exist.”
“I am not a nigger.”
“I will not let hate get me on my bad side.”
“I am not suspicious.”
“Racism is mental illness.”
“Let your haters be your motivators.”
“I am not a drop-out.”
“Disrespected but never destroyed.”
“My child is not a target.”
“I am not a lazy person.”
“<3 is stronger.”
“I say it loud: I am black and proud.”
“I am beautiful” “I am an American too.”
“America was built on our backs.”
“I am the future.”












